I want the real thing

09:45 pm

I was listening to Kalapana’s Real thing in my Muvo Vidz. Sabi ko kay Lord, “give me a song. Not just any song, but a song that is for ME.” So I pushed the joystick up and let it browse through the 49 songs in my player (excluding the subfolders). And guess what, when I let go of the joystick, I got the same song - Real thing by Kalapana.

Grabe na ito. I am not in love! My goodness. I had a very very very short relationship with Crush last August but I quickly ended it up as soon as I realized that he is not – as in NOT the right one for me. Grabe, I never thought I would do that. We are still friends though. I convinced him that hindi kami bagay talaga and that we are better off as friends.

I now realize that it is better to be single than to be with someone you don’t love. I am still waiting for the right one to come along my way. Hey! Nasan ka na ba? Bakit ang tagal mong dumating? :)

Sabi ng mga former officemates ko nung nalaman nila nangyari, baka daw pagsisihan ko ginawa ko kasi daw I am not getting any younger, matanda na daw ako. If there is another lesson that I learned from this recently ended relationship it is that 27 is not yet old. I am still young and until I think of myself as old, I will not be old.

Now I do not have to let go of anything because (in the first place) I did not choose to hold on to anything. And I am ok with it.

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11:03 pm

hmft! war kami! kala ko we're ok as friends!
hmft! mega tampo na naman! hmft! >:(

Hapag ng Pag-Asa

While doing my assignment in DevC 263, I got the urge to turn on the radio and it surprised me to hear Mr. Joey Velasco, the painter of “Hapag ng Pag-Asa,” was being interviewed by three radio hosts who are unknown to me.


The whole interview was so inspiring but the discussion that got through me was on why the children, who represented the twelve (12) apostles, are not looking at Christ. Critics of the painting pointed out that in all last supper paintings, the apostles are looking at Christ. This is to show that the followers are Christ centered. They said that the “Hapag ng Pag-Asa” painting was theologically incorrect. The painter answered them by saying that it doesn’t matter whether we are looking at Christ or not. He is still there for all of us, willingly and openly embracing each and everyone with His unending love.

Then I remember this song…

Iniibig kita
Hangad

Hindi ka kailangang magbago
Kahit ito’y mas ibig ko.
Hindi ka kailangang magsikap ng husto
Upang ika’y ibigin ko.

Iniibig kita,
manalig ka sana
Ako’y kapiling mo
Kahit ikaw pa ma’y mapalayo.

It’s so nice to write again.