I got a text message from one of my sisters in Lisyu this morning. She informed me that her boyfriend of six years got married last week. They got separated last September this year because the guy cannot promise her the exact date of their wedding day. They were engaged for I think 2 years.
Another friend was engaged for a year only to find out a month before the wedding that the guy already has a live-in partner.
Grabe… I don’t know what to say. Is this how we deal with love these days?
I shouldn’t generalize. But these are the facts. They are being thrown at my face. I’m so, so disappointed… :(
~~~
I dreamed of being chased by a crocodile in a man-made pond with him. At the end of the dream he was able to escape. I, on the other hand, woke up.
Crocodile
Definition:
Seeing a crocodile in your dream forewarns of hidden danger. Someone near you is giving you bad advice and is trying to sway you into poor decisions. The crocodile may be an aspect of yourself and your aggressive and "snappy" attitude. Or maybe it reveals that you have displayed some false emotions and shedding "crocodile tears". Dreaming that you are chased or bitten by a crocodile means disappointments in love and in business.
~~~
Nais ko
Fr. Mimo Perez
Nais ko sanang muling makamtan
Aking karanasan noong kamusmusan
Walang alinlangan, walang pangamba
Laging naniniwala't nagtitiwala
Akala ko sa aking pagtanda ay uunlad
Bakit ang buhay ko'y naging hungkag
Sana'y muling matutunan sigla ng kamusmusan
At ang matibay na paniniwala sa pagmamahal
Nais ko sanang muling balikan
Ang buhay kong payak ngunit puno ng galak
Kahit kung minsan napapaiyak
Mayamaya lang ay muling humahalkhak
Nais ko sanang maulit muli
Mga sandaling ako ay nanatiling
Buong pananalig na nakikinig
At tumatalima sa bulong ng pag-ibig
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Monday, November 21, 2005
Draining
Sometimes I get so discouraged here in the office. My work is totally related to the degree I finished. Super. That's why I felt so blessed when I got accepted here. Pero lately, hindi na. Naramdaman mo na ba yung, alam mong kaya mo but because of the people around you who do not believe in you (or in any body else except in themselves) mafe-feel mo na rin na hindi mo kaya? That is exactly how I feel right now.
As far as I know I was trained to do the things I’m doing right now. But my boss, who feels like s/he is intellectually superior above all others; who think that questioning is a mortal sin; and who thinks that every bad thing that happened is your fault, doesn’t feel that way.
Nagsisimula pa lang ako, idi-discourage na ako. I know I shouldn’t say this, pero nawawalan na ako ng kumpiyansa sa sarili ko. It’s so hard to resist them… hirap sobra. Very energy draining indeed.
As far as I know I was trained to do the things I’m doing right now. But my boss, who feels like s/he is intellectually superior above all others; who think that questioning is a mortal sin; and who thinks that every bad thing that happened is your fault, doesn’t feel that way.
Nagsisimula pa lang ako, idi-discourage na ako. I know I shouldn’t say this, pero nawawalan na ako ng kumpiyansa sa sarili ko. It’s so hard to resist them… hirap sobra. Very energy draining indeed.
Friday, November 18, 2005
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Buntonghininga
My 10 year-old cousin, Gello sent everybody a text message the other day about the gender of his unborn sibling. He informed us that the baby would be a boy and not a girl as he was expecting “it” to be. I know he was a bit disappointed because he was really really expecting a baby girl, which according to him would be named Carla. In response I asked him what would be the name of the baby now. He answered John Louise.
Mama smiled when I told her this. You see, the nickname Gello came from Gene Louise. Most likely John Louise’s nickname would be Jollo. Sabi ni mama, ingat lang daw sa pag-pronounce para wag maging JoloGs. :)
Come to think of it Gello, having a brother is not that bad. I should know, because I have two brothers myself. :) Plus, the name John means “the Beloved”. It would be sensible enough because I’m sure he will be your beloved little brother.
~~~
I’ve been searching for years and just found it last night.
Now I have the album of Fr. Mimo Perez entitled Buntonghinga ng Isang Alagad.
Yay! *Sigh* ;)… and the first song is…
BUKSAN
Fr. Mimo Perez
Pinid ang pintuan mistulang ding-ding
walang sinuman ang maaaring tanggapin
anong pumipigil? anong nag-babawal?
sa sariling mundo bat di ka lumaya
chorus:
buksan ang iyong mga mata
kahit may luha
mamahalin pa rin kita
at tutulungang lumaya
basong may tubig lagyan mong muli
aapaw dahil wala ng silid
pusong may galit di maaring umibig
bulag sa wasto alipin ng isip
Mama smiled when I told her this. You see, the nickname Gello came from Gene Louise. Most likely John Louise’s nickname would be Jollo. Sabi ni mama, ingat lang daw sa pag-pronounce para wag maging JoloGs. :)
Come to think of it Gello, having a brother is not that bad. I should know, because I have two brothers myself. :) Plus, the name John means “the Beloved”. It would be sensible enough because I’m sure he will be your beloved little brother.
~~~
I’ve been searching for years and just found it last night.
Now I have the album of Fr. Mimo Perez entitled Buntonghinga ng Isang Alagad.
Yay! *Sigh* ;)… and the first song is…
BUKSAN
Fr. Mimo Perez
Pinid ang pintuan mistulang ding-ding
walang sinuman ang maaaring tanggapin
anong pumipigil? anong nag-babawal?
sa sariling mundo bat di ka lumaya
chorus:
buksan ang iyong mga mata
kahit may luha
mamahalin pa rin kita
at tutulungang lumaya
basong may tubig lagyan mong muli
aapaw dahil wala ng silid
pusong may galit di maaring umibig
bulag sa wasto alipin ng isip
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Ten guidelines from God
from a forwarded e-mail
Effective Immediately, please be aware that there are changes YOU need to make in YOUR life. These changes need to be completed in order that I may fulfill My promises to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in this life. I apologize for any inconvenience, but after all that I am doing, this seems very little to ask of you. Please, follow these 10 guidelines
1. QUIT WORRYING:
Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit and worry. Have you forgotten that I am here to take all your burdens and carry them for you? Or do you just enjoy fretting over every little thing that comes your way?
2. PUT IT ON THE LIST:
Something needs done or taken care of. Put it on the list. No, not YOUR list. Put it on MY to-do-list. Let ME be the one to take care of the problem. I can't help you until you turn it over to Me. And although My to-do-list is long, I am after all... God. I can take care of anything you put into My hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known, I take care of a lot of things for you that you never even realize.
3. TRUST ME:
Once you've given your burdens to Me, quit trying to take them back. Trust in
Me. Have the faith that I will take care of all your needs, your problems and your trials. Problems with the kids? Put them on My list. Problem with finances? Put it on My list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster? For My sake, put it on My list. I want to help you. All you have to do is ask.
4. LEAVE IT ALONE:
Don't wake up one morning and say, "Well, I'm feeling much stronger now, I think
I can handle it from here." Why do you think you are feeling stronger now? It's simple. You gave Me your burdens and I'm taking care of them. I also renew your strength and cover you in my peace. Don't you know that if I give you these problems back, you will be right back where you started? Leave them with Me and forget about them. Just let Me do my job.
5. TALK TO ME:
I want you to forget a lot of things. Forget what was making you crazy. Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I'm in control. But there's one thing I pray you never forget. Please, don't forget to talk to Me - OFTEN! I love YOU! I want to hear your voice. I want you to include Me in on the things going on in your life. I want to hear you talk about your friends and family. Prayer is simply you having a conversation with Me. I want to be your dearest friend.
6. HAVE FAITH:
I see a lot of things from up here that you can't see from where you are. Have faith in Me that I know what I'm doing. Trust Me; you wouldn't want the view from My eyes. I will continue to care for you, watch over you, and meet your needs. You only have to trust Me. Although I have a much bigger task than you, it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing your simple part. How hard can trust be?
7. SHARE:
You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who are less fortunate than you. Share your joy with those who need encouragement. Share your laughter with those who haven't heard any in such a long time. Share your tears with those who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith with those who have none.
8. BE PATIENT:
I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime you could have so many diverse experiences. You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs many times, learn many trades, travel to so many places, meet thousands of people, and experience so much. How can you be so impatient then when it takes Me a little longer than you expect to handle something on My to-do-list? Trust in My timing, for My timing is perfect. Just because I created the entire universe in only six days, everyone thinks I should always rush, rush, rush.
9. BE KIND:
Be kind to others, for I love them just to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same way you do, but I still love you all. Please try to get along, for My sake. I created each of you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical. Please, know I love each of your differences.
10. LOVE YOURSELF:
As much as I love you, how can you not love yourself? You were created by me for one reason only -- to be loved, and to love in return. I am a God of Love. Love Me. Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes My heart ache when I see you so angry with yourself when things go wrong. You are very precious to me. Don't ever forget...
Effective Immediately, please be aware that there are changes YOU need to make in YOUR life. These changes need to be completed in order that I may fulfill My promises to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in this life. I apologize for any inconvenience, but after all that I am doing, this seems very little to ask of you. Please, follow these 10 guidelines
1. QUIT WORRYING:
Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit and worry. Have you forgotten that I am here to take all your burdens and carry them for you? Or do you just enjoy fretting over every little thing that comes your way?
2. PUT IT ON THE LIST:
Something needs done or taken care of. Put it on the list. No, not YOUR list. Put it on MY to-do-list. Let ME be the one to take care of the problem. I can't help you until you turn it over to Me. And although My to-do-list is long, I am after all... God. I can take care of anything you put into My hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known, I take care of a lot of things for you that you never even realize.
3. TRUST ME:
Once you've given your burdens to Me, quit trying to take them back. Trust in
Me. Have the faith that I will take care of all your needs, your problems and your trials. Problems with the kids? Put them on My list. Problem with finances? Put it on My list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster? For My sake, put it on My list. I want to help you. All you have to do is ask.
4. LEAVE IT ALONE:
Don't wake up one morning and say, "Well, I'm feeling much stronger now, I think
I can handle it from here." Why do you think you are feeling stronger now? It's simple. You gave Me your burdens and I'm taking care of them. I also renew your strength and cover you in my peace. Don't you know that if I give you these problems back, you will be right back where you started? Leave them with Me and forget about them. Just let Me do my job.
5. TALK TO ME:
I want you to forget a lot of things. Forget what was making you crazy. Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I'm in control. But there's one thing I pray you never forget. Please, don't forget to talk to Me - OFTEN! I love YOU! I want to hear your voice. I want you to include Me in on the things going on in your life. I want to hear you talk about your friends and family. Prayer is simply you having a conversation with Me. I want to be your dearest friend.
6. HAVE FAITH:
I see a lot of things from up here that you can't see from where you are. Have faith in Me that I know what I'm doing. Trust Me; you wouldn't want the view from My eyes. I will continue to care for you, watch over you, and meet your needs. You only have to trust Me. Although I have a much bigger task than you, it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing your simple part. How hard can trust be?
7. SHARE:
You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who are less fortunate than you. Share your joy with those who need encouragement. Share your laughter with those who haven't heard any in such a long time. Share your tears with those who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith with those who have none.
8. BE PATIENT:
I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime you could have so many diverse experiences. You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs many times, learn many trades, travel to so many places, meet thousands of people, and experience so much. How can you be so impatient then when it takes Me a little longer than you expect to handle something on My to-do-list? Trust in My timing, for My timing is perfect. Just because I created the entire universe in only six days, everyone thinks I should always rush, rush, rush.
9. BE KIND:
Be kind to others, for I love them just to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same way you do, but I still love you all. Please try to get along, for My sake. I created each of you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical. Please, know I love each of your differences.
10. LOVE YOURSELF:
As much as I love you, how can you not love yourself? You were created by me for one reason only -- to be loved, and to love in return. I am a God of Love. Love Me. Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes My heart ache when I see you so angry with yourself when things go wrong. You are very precious to me. Don't ever forget...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Angel Wisdom #1
The angels love our tears... Leaving, they dry our face with the brush of a wing, never seeing it pure... already far away from us.
- Rainer Maria Rilke
- Rainer Maria Rilke
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