Friday, December 12, 2008

Happy birthday ko na!

Dear God,

Thank you for all the wonderful blessings you have given me. I pray that you would bless me more indeed!

Loving you so much,

Jing


OUR LADY OF GUADALUPE
Fr. Rudy Horst

The image of Our Lady of Guadalupe has brown complexion and her features are not European (actually, Mary was not a European but an Asian woman), quite different from that in Lourdes or Fatima. After Mary appeared three times between December 9 and 12 in 1531 to St. Juan Diego, life in Mexico changed dramatically. Thousands of Aztecs converted to Catholicism, and the natives were finally acknowledged as human beings. Here’s an interesting background to the apparitions.

In Genesis, we read that Noah had three sons — Shem, Ham and Japheth — “and from them the whole earth was peopled” (Genesis 9:19). It was understood that Shem’s descendants were the Semites, Ham’s descendants were those in Egypt and the surrounding countries, while Japheth’s descendants lived in Asia Minor and on the Mediterranean islands. When the Spaniards landed in the newly discovered America in the 15th century, they found brown people, half-naked, and speaking an unknown language. They could not be descendants either of Shem, Ham, or Japheth, so the conquerors concluded that these creatures were animals and did not have a human soul. That was the reason for the horrible abuse of the Indios.

When Our Lady appeared at Guadalupe with Indio features, she acknowledged them to be her children also. Six years later, Pope Paul III officially declared the Indians “to be real human beings and capable of receiving the Catholic faith.”

Our Lady’s message to St. Juan Diego is as consoling and encouraging for us as it was for him: “I am your merciful Mother, the Mother of all... those who love me, of those who cry to me, of those who have confidence in me... Do not be troubled or weighed down with grief. Do not fear any illness...anxiety or pain. Am I not here who am your Mother?” We thank Pope Pius XI for declaring Our Lady of Guadalupe patroness of the Philippines. With such a patroness, what are we afraid of?

Reflection Question:
Is my devotion to Our Lady genuine? Does it lead me to a deeper love of Christ?

Lord, we thank and praise You for giving us Mary as our heavenly Mother. As she took care of the downtrodden natives in Mexico, she takes care of us in our sufferings and needs. Listen to her intercessions and prayers for us and bless us with Your mercy and love.

Our Lady of Guadalupe, pray for us.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Not too far from here

Kim Boyce

Somebody's down to their last dime,
Somebody's running out of time,
Not too far from here

Somebody's got nowhere else to go
Somebody needs a little hope
Not too far from here

And I may not know their name
But I'm praying just the same
That You'll use me Lord to wipe away a tear
'Cause somebody's crying
Not too far from here

Somebody's troubled and confused
Somebody's got nothing left to lose
Not too far from here

Somebody's forgotten how to trust
Somebody's dying for love
Not too far from here

It may be a stranger's face
But I'm praying for Your grace
To move in me and take away the fear
'Cause somebody's hurting
Not too far from here

Help me, Lord, not to turn away from pain
Help me not to rest while those around me weep
Give me Your strength and compassion
When somebody finds the road of life too steep

Now, I'm letting down my guard
And I'm opening my heart
Help me speak your love to every needful ear
Jesus is waiting
Not too far from here
Jesus is waiting
Not too far from here

Ranting and letting go - again

October 18
He was telling me something about a person we both know when he suddenly said, "Uy, ang cute mo naman!"

I made a face and told him, "Hmft, yesterday, you told me that I look like a 'Tita'"
He laughed at me and said, "So you dressed up for me?" I smiled and answered, "Hmm, partly. Well, yeah because you were criticizing me."

He laughed again the very sweet laugh of his.

October 25
He called me in the corner just to say, "You look nice today."
I felt my heart skipped. It took me one whole minute before I said, "Thank you."

~~~

November 3
The Dark Knight flirted with me this morning. After a meeting, I approached him to ask a question. He smiled his nice smile and told me to look at him straight to the eye while asking, which of course I cannot do because I had to refer at the paper I was holding. And he was so close! He’s not even an arms length! To touch him, I only have to extend a finger and that’s it. As in, that close! Hey, I was so tempted to hug him. Pero siyempre, hindi pwede, major no-no! As in NO!

~~~

Minsan, nakakaiyak isipin na after so many years of being alone, hindi pa rin ako maihanap ni Lord ng someone to love. This may sound weird or even twisted, but I think God is having a hard time finding someone for me. :( Is it really that hard Lord? Sad.

Minsan ok, minsan hindi. Now, it’s not ok. I feel unwanted. I longed to talk to someone about everything, about every single thing in this world. I longed to share my life with someone. Someone whom I can hug any time I want. Someone who will offer his shoulders for my head to lean on to. Hay…

~~~

Hay Lord, alam ko naman na ndi pede. Alam ko din naman that you have plans for me. I've been a witness to your most wonderful workings and I am confident that you really have magnificent plans for me. It's just that, it is so hard for me to be patient. So very hard for me to wait and sit back and watch out for the next thing that will happen, with or without my intervention. I am ranting because I am getting tired of waiting Lord. I know that you understand and love me still despite of all my complaints. I cannot even pray for the person I like to like me back! I cannot even ask you to give him to me, I just cannot! Because the mere though of praying about it is already a big mistake. But I am trying to look up to you alone, Lord, trying so hard to focus my heart, my mind, and my whole being to you as you guide me through my journey. I’m going to let go now, Lord. Hold me as I let go – again. And please don’t ever get tired of me.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

A farewell letter

Dear Len,

Hi! How are you? Where are you now? I hope you are happy and in the best condition.

We missed you last October 5. Well, I hope you were watching us the whole time. :) Everybody was there, si Cha lang ang kulang because her baby was sick.

Saturday night, I met Kris at San Pablo Jollibee. Imagine? Kris at San Pablo, well that was new. :) Anyway, you know what it was like out there. Everybody’s running around at the counter, and as usual some of the crew members were masungit. I remember you working there before you graduated from College. You used to tell me that you will never ever mix the left over condiments with the left over drinks kasi kawawa naman ang crew. :) Most likely you were laughing at me that time, reminiscing and all. Kris remembered you in one of your subject where you tested the Jollibee spaghetti and sundae for E. cola. Kris and I were laughing the whole time while we’re waiting for Arlene. She could not leave early because she’s with E :). She had her hair curled and I was so inggit because it was so nice on her.

Anyways, we eventually had to tell her to follow us to your house because it’s getting late. Almost all of your relatives were there. It was so nice to see all of them again. Tita Coring was there waiting for Goldie. Kuya Delon was there, arranging everything. Kuya Richmond was there trying to lighten things up although, it was so apparent that he’s dying inside. Sam was also there. That nephew of yours was so sweet and guwapo ha. It’s a pity he will never grow up with you by his side. I know you will spoil him to death. :)

That night, while looking at you, I cried so hard for a while. I cried because I remembered how inseparable we were in college. In everything and in anything it was always “us”. But through the years we drifted apart. I was blaming you for the “separation”. I know you blame me for some things also. With that said, I was really surprised when Rey asked me to give you a eulogy on behalf of our friends. I was really surprised at the same time thankful because in a way I felt forgiven for not attending your wedding.

My only worry that time was the next-day meeting with Mark and his wife, Dani. I dreaded meeting them. Earlier that week, I was ranting at my boss about how insensitive and dense Mark was for planning to bring his wife. And my boss, the rational man that he was, explained to me that it is but right for him to bring his wife. Anyway, the next day, I was both tense and worried. Tense because, I was to be the facilitator/mc of your necrological program and worried because I’ll be meeting them (Mark and Dani) after four long years.

Sabi ko na lang kay Lord earlier that week: “Lord, I will be facing this head on but give something to look forward to after ha?” And guess what? Hours after that prayer, one of our outstanding soldiers in TOPS invited us to a tour at Sangley Point in Cavite City. Astig noh? :)

Anyway, on my most dreaded day, except for the fact that you were not there, everything went well. As in very well! I was able to make peace with Mark and Dani. Imagine after four years of being angry at them and with the world for being “so unfair” to me, I suddenly realized that I can now let go. Of all the hurts, the anger, and the self pity that I ever had to carry for so long, I just found my self letting them all go. And it felt so wonderfully light and sweet. Hay, Len, how I wish you were there to witness everything. Truly, there is a season for everything. :) And then I found this:

Forgiveness is almost a selfish act
because of its immense benefits
to the one who forgives.
~ Lawana Blackwell


Now, I can tell God that I am ready not only for a “new season” but for a “New Program”.

Yun lang muna, Len. I hope to see you again some time in the future, when I have fulfilled my purpose here on Earth. I am just lifting everything up to Him there. Please tell Him how much I love Him. I hope someday somehow, you’ll be able to forgive me for all my shortcomings. I’ll be telling my kids about you. Mwah!

Love lots,

Jing

Monday, September 29, 2008

A weekend of closure

Last Friday, I received a call from Mark. It came in as a nice surprise since the last time I talked with him was in November 2005. In between that date and now, I only saw him once, while he was crossing the street in San Pablo City and talked with him twice, both through text. Now, I am glad that the line of communication between us is open again. However, I have to say that I am not too keen on becoming too close to him, or even just plain close. Our closeness many years ago cost me a lot, and I cannot let that happen again.

The purpose driven life said that we are instructed by God to immediately forgive the person who hurt us. But it was also emphasized that we have the right not to allow that same person to hurt us again. I don’t even think he wants it nor is proper to do just that. It is also my way of showing respect to him and his wife. :)

Looking back now, if I will be asked the question “Have you fallen out of love of him?” My answer would be “No”. I am and will (probably) forever be in love with the Mark that I have loved so many years ago. But things are different now. The Mark whom I have talked to last Friday is a stranger. Except for his name, I don’t know him anymore.

I remember some months ago when Rinka and I were discussing things, she mentioned that she is not a reconnector of relationships. I said to her that I am also like that – once broken, I let go, it may take time but I let go and things will never be the same. I am proud to say, however, that I am an establisher. I strengthen the relationships that I have that are not broken.

May be in the future, things will be different. Right now, I am thankful with what I have.

~~~

My college best friend died last Saturday. Her body succumbed to leukemia. My heart cries for the family that she left behind. But my heart rejoices for her because I know that wherever she is right now, she has seen the beauty and felt the love of her God.

Until we meet again, Len. Thank you so much for all the wonderful and happy memories. Please send my deepest love to Jena. Please tell her how much I miss her.

~~~

The “Episodes” ended mid August. No words were mentioned about it. It ended just like that. I was affected for about a month. But I have accepted the fact that nothing will ever come out of it. It’s just that during the times that we were “together”, he made me feel very very special and beautiful. No one has ever done that to me – well, not that much. :) I am a lady whenever I am with him. And just like all stories, it ended. Kinalabit na ako ni Lord. Enough na daw. :)

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Workshop on Association Social Responsibility: A Report

This was attended by 31 representatives from the different sectors of the society, including those from the academe, business, civic, military and public safety, professionals, and youth. The Metrobank Foundation, Inc. was represented by two of its COPS Awardees namely: PSupt. Bernabe Balba (PROTECT External Vice President) and PSupt. Felicidad Gido (PROTECT Internal Vice President) and I. It started promptly at 9:00 am with everyone introducing themselves to the group.

This was followed by the opening remarks of Dr. Jesus P. Estanislao where he mentioned that in the Global Summit on Social Responsibility that he attended in Washington D.C., they discussed appreciative inquiry in the context of global challenges. Appreciative inquiry (AI) as he described it is the paradigm that is being adopted by industries these days where leaders stress inquiry and see organizations as center of human relationships. This principle focused on building up and magnifying the strengths of the people and the organization in developing a strategy for improvement. As such, the Institute for Solidarity in Asia (ISA) made use of AI paradigm in the conduct of the day’s workshop.

Dr. Estanislao highlighted the fact that the Philippines has quite a number of non-government and civic organizations, however it is still struggling with poverty. He presented two challenges to the group, the first one being the challenge of subsidiarity and the second one, the challenge of solidarity. Subsidiarity, according to him, is the empowerment of the people while solidarity is nation building. Companies are already employing the concept of subsidiarity through its corporate social responsibility programs but there is still a need to transcend it to nation building.

The workshop seeks to answer the following questions:

How to promote subsidiarity?
How to promote association and solidarity?
How to promote association and common good?
How to promote association and the promotion of the dignity of the Filipino people?


WORKSHOP PROPER

The workshop was divided into eight (8) sessions.

Session 1. “High Point Moment” of a Leader
The participants were grouped into three to share experiences in leading / participating in activities that would bring about change. This includes identifying one’s learnings and strengths in facing challenges.

Each group was asked to identify the most interesting story to be presented to the rest of the participants. Out of the six (6) presentors, two cited the stories of the COPS Awardees present. Both PSupt. Balba and PSupt. Gido highlighted their efforts in working with the community to promote the advocacies of the police force. They have initiated information campaign in their communities both in preventing and solving crimes. Participants took particular interest in the story of PSupt. Gido when the one who reported about her mentioned that she has six (6) children, four of which were adopted. These four children came from the families who were involved in the cases she was working on in the last few years.

Session 2. Innovations in Social Responsibility
With the same group, the participants were asked to identify innovations that were done / implemented by their respective associations in order to bring about social change. I was tasked to report on the Philippine Regulatory Commission (PRC) case and the Project Citizen Philippines.

Case 1: Philippine Regulatory Commission (PRC)
Ms. Antonieta F. Ibe, Former PRC Chair shared to the group that when she took the position of PRC Chair the situation then in the commission could only be described as chaotic because graft and corruption was so rampant in the institution. Since there are more than 2.5 million professionals and more than 600 would be professionals during her first year, she had to start with identifying priorities on what should be done first. She implemented the Customer Focused Service to raise the standard of the professionals. Her effort resulted to PRC gaining the trust of the different sectors (maritime, academe, etc.). In the end she was able to come up with the “Code of Good Governance” signed by President Gloria Macapacal Arroyo.

Case 2: Project Citizen Philippines
This program is being implemented in 60 different countries all over the world. Building on the idea that democracy is a consensus building, Project Citizen Philippines trains high school students to identify and solve problems in a democratic process. They engage the students into community immersions and ask them to prepare portfolios containing the community’s problem, the existing laws to address the problem and proposed laws. Some of the proposals were elevated to the city council level and were adopted by the councilors. They have prepared text books and manuals for easy replication.

In the following sessions, the two COPS awardees and I were grouped together with the public safety and civic sector, respectively.

Session 3. Visions of Philippines 2030
The group composed of business, civic and public safety sectors envisioned the Philippines in 2030 as a country that has already achieved its nationhood in its truest sense with high pride index and where people continuously build mutual trust and respect.

Session 4. Role of Your Anchor Group / Association in Bringing About Philippines 2030
To attain the vision of Philippines 2030, the group agreed that each of their associations should contribute to the strengthening of family ties, formation of fundamental values and promotion of balance approach to life where all facets of ones life is at work and is strengthened.

Session 5. Association / Anchor Group’s Contributions and Impact
In this part, the facilitator asked for the smallest and the boldest contribution one can make towards the attainment of the Philippines 2030 vision. The group agreed that for the smallest contribution, one must be able to “start where he can and where he must”. The change must be internal to be effective but one must believe that it can be done. For the boldest contribution, one must consider integrated development where all sectors will work accordingly to achieve the necessary change.

Session 6. Association / Anchor Group Services and Innovations and Session 7. Assessment of the Association / Anchor Group
The group identified Filipino people as their constituents. Being involved in the key sectors of the society, members of the group offered different services that they can offer to their countrymen, two of these were: strengthening family ties through the projects of the civic sector and protection of the community and the country from criminality and terrorism. The group also agreed that credibility, transparency, and fortitude are three of the strengths that can lead people towards nation building.

Session 8. Association Response to its Key Constituents and the Needs of the Nation
The group recognized capability building as the priority action program that should be adopted by the different sectors of the society.

Session 9. Social and National Responsibility of Anchor Group or Association

For the definition of social responsibility, the group was fortunate enough to be joined by Dr. Estanislao himself to give his definition of it. According to him:

“Social responsibility is the operative commitment to enhancing the personal dignity of every Filipino by contributing to the common good on the basis of subsidiarity and solidarity.”

The core principles involved are the following: respect for common good, for subsidiarity, for solidarity, and for personal dignity.

The best practices that associations can share with other groups are their:
· governance improvement pathways
· learn and share cascading initiatives
· personal governance score cards in every sector / area possible.

To be able to share the concept of social responsibility to the different sectors of the society, the associations should:
a. get the different anchors group to work with other sectors
b. have regular forums to highlight achievements
c. build bridges among the different groups to gain respect and network.


INSIGHTS FROM THE WORKSHOP

Overall this one-day workshop seeks to identify the sector’s strengths and level of involvement in nation building. The workshop was attended by key personalities of key sectors of society. Their inputs were based on their own experiences in doing projects and activities for the improvement of their sectors. Their efforts underwent rejection, revision, improvement, and afterwards adoption. The principles discussed in the workshop can be adopted by the newly established COPS Alumni organization, PROTECT to be able to establish itself in a sturdy foundation. Some recommendations are:

· Capability training. One cannot share what one does not have. In order for the officers and members of PROTECT to be involved in projects on education or even information dissemination, they should be properly equipped with knowledge on the subject that they are going to share to others. They should be trained properly as well on how they are going to carry out the trainings. These can be done by exposing themselves to different seminars and trainings on their subjects of interests.
· Documentation. Compared to other recognition programs in PNP, COPS is considered as the first one to organize all its awardees to form an association called PROTECT. This can be considered as a feat on its own and documentation of all its efforts, including its failures, may be helpful to others in the public safety sector should they decide to organize an organization with the same mission/vision.
· Conduct of fora to highlight individual and group achievements. One word of affirmation can speak thousands of words of encouragement. Recognition of best practices can be done through the PROTECT annual meetings as well as though the COPS yahoogroups. Updates are needed for members to know where their fellow members are at the moment. This can also be used as feedback channel for member’s improvement in their craft.
· Partnership with LGUs and NGOs. Partnership with local government officials and non-government is needed to expand the network of PROTECT. Their support as well as their involvement is needed to ensure that all sides are heard and considered.
· Have a strategic plan that would lead towards nation building. In a meeting with the ISA, it was mentioned that doing good on its own will not make a person a responsible citizen. In order to practice responsible citizenship, one must be able to influence other people to do good as well. The same principle should be adopted by the PROTECT organization. They should act as mobilizers of change in the society. This can be done by instilling the goal of nation building in all the projects of the organization.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Encounter no. Nth+2 - Special Episode

"Do you want coffee? Let's have coffee."

We had coffee. :)

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Encounter no. Nth+1

If there is one thing that I like so much about him, it is the fact that he listens and he listens well. I am very sensitive to the reaction of people and I particularly dislike those who just pretend to listen when it is so obvious that their mind is wondering somewhere else.

Whenever I mention a particular term pertaining to him, he knows that I am going to say something. Not once did it go unnoticed. And it really makes me feel special.

It is just sad because I cannot share what I feel about him with anybody else – for two reasons: (1) I don’t trust most of them enough, and (2) I have the impression that those few whom I chose to share with what I feel, do not want to listen.

Nakakatuwa lang isipin that I met someone like him. :) He makes me feel all warm inside. I am fully aware that I should not go beyond the boundaries – although I must admit that the line is very thin and that any moment, any unguarded moment on my part would cost me my heart.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Health Tips

9 HEALTH TIPS
Bo Sanchez

1. Prophesy your health. Your words have power. We have more power than we think we have. Try to say this everyday: “I’ll be healthy until I reached a hundred.” :)

2. Live with a clear conscience. Sirach 38:9-10 “My son when you are ill, do not delay, but pray to the Lord and he will heal you. Give up your faults and direct your hands rightly, and cleanse your heart from all sins.” There is no division between your soul, you mind and your body so have a clear conscience!

3. Learn to Relax. Paper, person and prayer. Paper - Try to keep a diary. Write everything that happened to you everyday. When you release your emotions and anxieties, your immune system strengthens. Person – have someone to talk to. Prayer – talk to God about everything.

4. Choose to be happy. Proverbs 17:32 – “Being cheerful keeps you healthy, it is a slow death to be gloomy all the time.” There are four kinds of personality:

Life long pattern of hopelessness - 75% of them died of cancer while 15% died of heart attack
Severe blame and anger in life – 75% died of heart disease while 15% died of cancer.
Mixture of 1 and 2 - 9% of them died or either cancer or heart attack.
People who decide to be happy – only 1% of them died of cancer or heart attach.

Are you a person who chooses to be happy every day? Decide to be happy everyday.

5. Invest in friendships and in relationships. Happiness is about relationships.

6. Work with purpose and passion. Eccl. 2:24 – “There is nothing better for mortals to eat and drink, and find enjoyment in their toil.” Are you happy with your work? Do you find your passion in your work? Discover your passion!

7. Take deep breath. Deep breath cleanses your body with toxins.

8. Get enough sleep. Psalms 127:1-2 – “Unless the Lord build the house, those who labor, builds in vain. Unless the Lord guards the city, the guard keeps watch in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toll; for he gives sleep to his beloved.” It is when you are sleeping that your body heals.

9. Move it or loose it. Exercise!

~~~

More Heath Tip

Eat chocolates to:
1. feel happy,
2. lessen pain, and
3. to prevent menstrual cramps.

~~~

7TH HEAVEN
(One ep. In their last season)

Rev. Camdem went to heaven. He was met there by Jenny, his mother-in-law and she accompanied him to go Christmas shopping. They went straight to a clock store where they met the father of Phillip whom the Reverend spent time with every now and then. In the store, the Phillip’s father suggested “time” as the perfect gift for Matt and Sarah since they were doctors, they would need more time for their children. As they went out the store, his Jenny left him for a while.

He was met by a woman from Ethiopia who thanked him for giving Nell the courage to adopt her five children. In return she gave him “courage” to be given to Lucy – for her to have the courage to have another child.

After which, he was fed by the waiters he generously fed through the years. As soon as he finished his meal, he was met again by Jenny.

Next they went on shopping for Mary. They bought her the “ability to forget.” Wrapped in a brown paper for it to look ordinary, after all, according to them, forgiveness belongs to God. We just need to forget. Then she met Joyce mother. Joyce resented her mother for buying her food instead of a doll saying that if only she could have known the importance of the doll. She thanked Reverend for helping Joyce and gave him a gift – an eraser for Mary for her to forgive herself.

Then, they went shopping for Simon. They met the father of Pearl and thanked him for showing Pearl her purpose. He figured that Simon needs purpose. Before they leave, they met with Martin’s mother who thanked him for taking care of her son and her husband. She also told him that Erin will be showing Martin his purpose in life. She gave him the gift of “purpose” for Simon – which he will unravel after several Christmas.

They took a ride in a cart driven by the father of Lindsey. He gave Ruthie: dignity, beauty, and loyalty.

On Earth, his family are worried that Rev. Camdem is missing, everyone except, Annie. She encouraged everyone to “have a little faith” that their Father would come home.

Rev. Camdem then look for gifts for Sam and David. They met Angelica, who recently got her wings. She got cooperation, understanding and respect for each of the twins. Angelica came from a long line of guardian angels. She was in fact the grand daughter of Gertrude, one of Rev. Camdem’s guardian angels. Jenny informed the Reverend that each person has a band of guardian angels. Gertrude was busy at the moment, doing some paper works for him to go back to Earth. The last person in the Reverend’s guest list is Annie.

While outside the bookstore, they met the co-worker of Larry. He thanked him for influencing Larry to change his life for the better. The Reverend asked his suggestion for a gift for Annie. But he told him that he cannot help him, but he thanked him and left.

Rev. Camdem suddenly said that he missed Annie. Him, missing her, according to Jenny is a sign that he is not suppose to be there because, “if you’re really suppose to be here (in heaven) you will not miss anyone because you know that you will meet them again in the future.”

As a gift to Annie, he suggested giving Annie faith. But Jenny said that “she already has faith to spare, how could she not be after being married with you all these years.” Then he met with Gertrude who gave him the news that he will still live on Earth.

As he gets ready to leave heaven, he asked if he will remember his experience there, Jenny said that what he will remember is that everything is fine, that everything is going to be fine.
And as he met his family, everyone was just so glad to see him.

~~~


My soul drifts in places.
Sometimes it rests as if satisfied.
But the
winds of change and fate blows,
and so with it my soul rides!
Searching
for something it had lost,
so long ago.

~~~

It’s Sunday and it’s also Father’s day. I greeted Papa a very Happy Father’s day. I prayed for him and all the fathers in the world to be closer to Jesus.

I did not leave the house, did not even see other people. I feel so relax now. It is so nice to write again. So, so nice to write again. :)

Saturday, June 14, 2008

For my Dearest

Dearest,
I miss you so much.
Where are you? You seem so far.
I am longing for you.
My soul longs for you.
Can you hear me?
Can you hear my thoughts?
Can you hear my heart?
I have been dying to feel you,
to see you, to be with you once again.
I’ve been searching for you.
It seems like years since I felt you.
Where are you?
Please be with me.
I miss you so very much.
Please.

~~~

From Hallmark Cards, Inc.

For every heart that listens,
There is a Voice that speaks…
There is a
Door that opens…
To every soul that seeks…
To those who ask, the Promise
is that they shall receive…
The Gift of Grace is given
To all those who
believe.

~~~

From Fallen: only God judges.

~~~

“Why are you sad Jing?”
I never expected him to ask such question, mainly because no one ever asked me that question.
“I am not.” I answered defensively. “Why do you ask?”
“Because sometimes when I look at you, your eyes show how very sad you are.” He replied and then he asked again, “Why are you sad, Jing?”
I had a hard time directing the conversation to another topic.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Grants RTD

MBFI Reflection #2

The recently held Grants Roundtable Discussion gave me a bird’s eye view of who the beneficiaries of the Foundation are and their advocacies. It is very inspiring to know that the organization I am connected with has touched the lives of people in different sectors of the society through its benevolent works. The concept of “paying it forward” was manifested in the institutions and foundations being helped by the Foundation as they carry on their own advocacies to create a massive and global change in their own way.

Since we were informed beforehand that we were to submit a reflection paper after the roundtable, my first thought was to look for a foundation whose advocacy would correspond to my own interests, which were child development, education and environment.

I was familiar with the Family Farm School because one of our requirements to be able to complete a course in college was a module specifically made for them. It was just unfortunate that their president was not able to present his organization because I was really looking forward to hearing about the success of their projects for the farmers’ children.

Cartwheel and Trichet impressed me not only because they have catered to the special needs of the indigenous people and the special children, respectively, but also because the people behind these two organizations were, to some extent, the unlikely people to be involved in these kinds of work. When asked why did they stay and continue doing what they are doing, they both answered that their love for children made everything seem easy. They both wanted their beneficiaries to gain the respect that are due to them. I realized that these beliefs coincide with the Foundation’s mission of “supporting programs which strengthen the core sectors of the society as well as respond to the needs of the disadvantaged.”

On a more personal note, this roundtable provided a venue for me to start my healing process on the death of my cousin. While working at the SOS Foundation she was diagnosed of having nasopharyngeal cancer. She underwent chemotherapy and radiotherapy for more than a year before she passed away March last year. Due probably to the chemicals injected to her, the treatment left her bedridden and depressed. I started looking for an organization or a support group that would help her and our family cope with all the strains that we were experiencing that time in dealing with her sickness.

It was very unfortunate that I became aware of Carewell Community only during the Grants Roundtable. Should I know about the services they offer to those with cancer (and their families), my cousin would have probably died happy. This, however, did not prevent me from being thankful to the founder of Carewell Community. It is encouraging to know that the Philippines has this kind of institution that promotes physical, emotional and even spiritual wellness among those who are stricken with cancer.

I have always believed that all things in this world are interconnected. The goodness that we do and the person that we become after are results of previous goodness that we have experienced. As the old adage goes, goodness begets goodness. In 1969, Margaret Mead said, "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it's the only thing that ever has." The principle of “paying it forward” as adopted by the Metrobank Foundation would initiate a butterfly effect that would uplift the lives of the people and of the society in general.

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Rosalindas of the Foundation

Me, Malou, Trish and Marge


The GEAPH Team

Khalid, Me, Aviec and Gloria

SFC Bicutan Upper Household Planning

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Things that I learned from my Boss

On Work
Do everything that you can, in everyway possible to complete a task. When you have done everything, sit back, pray and let God finish the work.

In Dealing with People
In life, you will meet people who think that the world revolves around them, in dealing with them, remember that God will not ask you who won the battle but how much love you showed them in response to their arrogance.

On Pain and Suffering
Offer every suffering and every pain to God. Things will get better, you’ll see.

On Life
At the end of each day, reflect and ask yourself “Have I been an instrument of God’s love to people around me?”

On Faith
He has this theory that with the exception of Christ, Mary is one of the best examples of how a Christian should live his/her life. He said that as Mary received the good news that she was to carry in her womb the Son of God, so one must also receive a glorious message from God. And just as she said “Be it done unto me according to Your word,” we too must also respond with the same heartiness. He further explained this by stating that as time went by, Mary moved to the back and let Jesus take the front seat. He interpreted this by saying that as we grow in love with Christ, people should see Him in everything that we do. It is He who should be seen in us because we are His.

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I have two best friends. Bestfriend-1 is ever sweet and warm while Bestfriend-2 is very cold right now. Hindi ako sanay. So I just have to wait. Hintayin ko na lang na magustuhan ulit niya akong kausapin. Nakakalungkot lang but lately I’ve been trying to get in touch and I can not feel that she wants to talk to me. It’s ok. Sad but it’s ok. Nakakalungkot kasi I am getting use to being left behind by people whom I loved the most.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Extra! Extra!

Question:
When will you stop being sad?

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Realization:
Sometimes, it is better to open up your thoughts to those who do not know you that much. I told four men what happened and they replied:

Man 1: Biyaan mo na yun. Pangit yun!
Man 2: Halika na Jing, sugudin na natin!
Man 3: Jing, you should be happy for him because God answered your prayers. You should know what you want and then pray for it, it seems like He is really listening to you.
Man 4: Maybe it’s for the best.

Man 3 made me want to shut up and cry (I didn't, thank God - but he eventually told me to shut up first and let him talk - haha!). Man 1 and Man 2 made me laugh out loud. As in, ang kukulit! :) I love them! Man 4 gave me a very sweet hug.

Surprisingly, I feel ok now.

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Extra! Extra!

Special Recipe for Heart's Peace Candy

A bottle of preserved anger
½ cup tears
¾ cup acceptance
1 & ¼ cup laughter
2 cups hope
2 cups faith
4 cups love

1. Heat the preserved anger to melt. Add tears. Stir to dissolve. Cool slightly.
2. Add acceptance and faith. Mix well. Stir in hope and love. Blend well.
3. Place everything in God’s hand. Bake for 25 minutes.
4. Top with laughter.

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Friday, January 04, 2008

Let Your Spirit Shine!

Noel Cabangon

Let Your Spirit shine!
Be the sun to end this darkness so that we may find,
the scattered pieces of the selves we lost
On roads we left behind

Let Your Sprit soar!
Be the wind to lift our weary hearts just like before.
How we long to hear the music of your voice!
Let your breath refresh our troubled world just once more

While the world rushes through its days
There's a secret presence shining from every face
All you need is to slow things down,
Take the time to look around
And you may find God's special hiding place

Let your Spirit fall!
Your the rain that purifies and heals our battered souls
May you touch our wooden wounded hearts
May you mend our broken lives, make them whole

While the world tosses trough the night,
There’s a sacred presence rising from every side
All you need is to slow things down,
take the time to look around and you may find God's special hiding place

Let your Spirit burn!
Be the fire that melt our frozen hearts
Please help us learn to dare to love without the usual fear
Of giving everything with nothing in return

O come and set our spirits free
Give meaning to the lives we lead,
Show us where to go, that we may find the One we seek
Where else can we go but only to you who sets us free?