From Sun Cellular Inspiration (2346):
May 28, 2005
What’s in a name? Eric means ever powerful, Mark – defender, Sarah - Princess, Rachelle – little lamb. And You? What’s the story behind your name?
“The Lord called me from the womb, from the body of my mother he named my name.” (Is 49:1) God lovingly calls you by your name! For the past years of your life you’ve been called and known by your name. Go back to the roots of your name and see how this has become part of your own story – God’s gift that is you.
~~~
Name: Guada
Origin: Arabic
Meaning/Translation: The river
Hi La Mer :)
~~~
What's yours?
Friday, May 27, 2005
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Destiny
Destiny, you are the oldest of The Endless, you are
eternally chained to a book that holds the
secrets of the universe. You are all business,
never have time to even crack a smile, and
always make sure you do not draw too much
attention. You do not want people hunting after
you!
Which Endless are you?
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005
For you
I know I love you. I can deny it and reject it repeatedly for as often as I can but the truth has a way of making its point; and repeatedly, too. It will dance mockingly before you, shine brightly above you, run fast after you and pull you hard from side to side until you finally get it.
It's funny how truth chases those who are in denial but conceals itself from those who want it badly.
But you've made a choice. I *should not* wait for you to change your mind because you were never the fickle type. In fact, I'm the fickle one. On some occasions though, I could be surprisingly consistent. Certainly, I want to be consistent on my decision to not wait for you anymore.
If you'd see some fool coming near me, you'd be the first to hope that he's the one for me. Or if you knew he isn't, you'd at least hope that I'd enjoy playing with him. You're always ready to see me walk away. Only because you want me to be happy and as far as you're concerned, you can't make me happy while you're with someone else - someone you've chosen over me.
This is not how I used to think and it's exactly the reason why I made things a lot harder for myself. I just kept on waiting.
But now waiting's over. I'm letting you go. Or more accurately, I'm letting me and myself go.
There are a lot of guys who are way, way, better than you especially when it comes to being "loving" is concerned. If only you could tell them how you are able to make me feel what I feel when I'm with you!!!
If you change your mind -- and a part of me will always wonder if you would, despite all my letting-go-crap, yes -- I just hope you'd tell me. Clearly. Even as I'm so comfortable with making you guess what's on my mind, I want you to be clear and direct and sweetly straightforward with me.
Tell me if you've changed your mind.
Tell me if your heart has changed.
Until you do, I'll put you under "lost causes." A love that was never meant for me.
So tomorrow I'll walk down the aisle to marry this guy who would be the father of my soon-to-be born child. Come to think of it, I had to be pregnant to be able to settle down with someone who is not you. Well, he loves me. At least that's what he told me.
-- Taken from the short story, "Sally's Fortress" (GMP 1997) by Germa Benitez.
(Note: the author of the "excerpt" above is a very good friend of mine. I don’t know if it’s ok to post her real name here. When I get the approval, post ko na lang)
~~~
If you would come back, I would be the happiest. But if not, I would still be the happiest.
It's funny how truth chases those who are in denial but conceals itself from those who want it badly.
But you've made a choice. I *should not* wait for you to change your mind because you were never the fickle type. In fact, I'm the fickle one. On some occasions though, I could be surprisingly consistent. Certainly, I want to be consistent on my decision to not wait for you anymore.
If you'd see some fool coming near me, you'd be the first to hope that he's the one for me. Or if you knew he isn't, you'd at least hope that I'd enjoy playing with him. You're always ready to see me walk away. Only because you want me to be happy and as far as you're concerned, you can't make me happy while you're with someone else - someone you've chosen over me.
This is not how I used to think and it's exactly the reason why I made things a lot harder for myself. I just kept on waiting.
But now waiting's over. I'm letting you go. Or more accurately, I'm letting me and myself go.
There are a lot of guys who are way, way, better than you especially when it comes to being "loving" is concerned. If only you could tell them how you are able to make me feel what I feel when I'm with you!!!
If you change your mind -- and a part of me will always wonder if you would, despite all my letting-go-crap, yes -- I just hope you'd tell me. Clearly. Even as I'm so comfortable with making you guess what's on my mind, I want you to be clear and direct and sweetly straightforward with me.
Tell me if you've changed your mind.
Tell me if your heart has changed.
Until you do, I'll put you under "lost causes." A love that was never meant for me.
So tomorrow I'll walk down the aisle to marry this guy who would be the father of my soon-to-be born child. Come to think of it, I had to be pregnant to be able to settle down with someone who is not you. Well, he loves me. At least that's what he told me.
-- Taken from the short story, "Sally's Fortress" (GMP 1997) by Germa Benitez.
(Note: the author of the "excerpt" above is a very good friend of mine. I don’t know if it’s ok to post her real name here. When I get the approval, post ko na lang)
~~~
If you would come back, I would be the happiest. But if not, I would still be the happiest.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Mama
I called my mom to inform her that my cousin invited me over to stay at her place tonight. With this, she enumerated the things that I "should" bring with me when I go there including underwear, toothbrush, vitamins, pati nga jacket pinapapagdala ako kasi daw I am sick -- colds and cough lang po *eyes rolling*
I'm used to this now.
I told her: "Si mama parang first time kong mag-overnight sa ibang bahay"
She laughed and said: "Bakit ba? Eh sanay na akong ganun. Basta wag mo kakalimutan vitamins mo."
Siyempre I have to answer: "Opo"
Sometimes, I really get irritated whenever she does this. Super nakukulitan! But most of the time, I just let her. Because I know that time will come when I will miss this kind of conversation. So, let me cherish every moment now while I still can.
I'm used to this now.
I told her: "Si mama parang first time kong mag-overnight sa ibang bahay"
She laughed and said: "Bakit ba? Eh sanay na akong ganun. Basta wag mo kakalimutan vitamins mo."
Siyempre I have to answer: "Opo"
Sometimes, I really get irritated whenever she does this. Super nakukulitan! But most of the time, I just let her. Because I know that time will come when I will miss this kind of conversation. So, let me cherish every moment now while I still can.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Lucban trip
Date: Saturday, May 14, 2005
It was one of those unplanned trip our family usually have so nobody’s surprised anymore when my parents announced at 11 in the evening where we’re going the next day.
Date: Sunday, May 15, 2005
Destination: Lucban Quezon to visit the now-famous Lucban Grotto :)
We left the house at around 4 in the morning. Papa decided to take the Nagcarlan - Liliw road going there to avoid the traffic jam. Since it was an early morning ride, everything seemed fresh. People were helpful whenever directions were asked. Even the plants opened up to welcome the sunshine.
1st stop: Lucban Quezon (Pahiyas 2005 Festival)
We arrived at the San Isidro Labrador Church at exactly 7:15am just in time to attend the later part of the mass.
Lucban is ever famous for its colorful kiping, which the town folks use to decorate the façade of their houses. If I’m not mistaken I think the local government annually gives award to the most beautifully decorated house. So we went around to observe the designs. Among them all I prefer these two:
On the road going to the Grotto, breakfast was served by mama with oatmeal, tart, puto kutsinta and pansit hab-hab on the menu :)
2nd stop: Lucban Grotto
The Grotto’s amazing. Picture? Here:
3rd stop: Pacific Mall
Where we had our lunch!
We headed straight home afterwards.
~~~
Inay and I had our very own photo session that afternoon.
~~~
It was one of those unplanned trip our family usually have so nobody’s surprised anymore when my parents announced at 11 in the evening where we’re going the next day.
Date: Sunday, May 15, 2005
Destination: Lucban Quezon to visit the now-famous Lucban Grotto :)
We left the house at around 4 in the morning. Papa decided to take the Nagcarlan - Liliw road going there to avoid the traffic jam. Since it was an early morning ride, everything seemed fresh. People were helpful whenever directions were asked. Even the plants opened up to welcome the sunshine.
1st stop: Lucban Quezon (Pahiyas 2005 Festival)
We arrived at the San Isidro Labrador Church at exactly 7:15am just in time to attend the later part of the mass.
Lucban is ever famous for its colorful kiping, which the town folks use to decorate the façade of their houses. If I’m not mistaken I think the local government annually gives award to the most beautifully decorated house. So we went around to observe the designs. Among them all I prefer these two:
On the road going to the Grotto, breakfast was served by mama with oatmeal, tart, puto kutsinta and pansit hab-hab on the menu :)
2nd stop: Lucban Grotto
The Grotto’s amazing. Picture? Here:
3rd stop: Pacific Mall
Where we had our lunch!
We headed straight home afterwards.
~~~
Inay and I had our very own photo session that afternoon.
~~~
Thursday, May 12, 2005
I Can't Make You Love Me
by Bonnie Raitt
Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close,
don't patronize
Don't patronize me
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
I'll close my eyes
then I won't see
the love you don't feel
when you're holding me
Morning will come
and I'll do what's right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and I will give up this fight
Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close,
don't patronize
Don't patronize me
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
I'll close my eyes
then I won't see
the love you don't feel
when you're holding me
Morning will come
and I'll do what's right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and I will give up this fight
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Your Life Path Number Is 5 |
5 You are very versatile, adventurous, and progressive. With a 5 life path, you are one of those people who is always striving to find answers to the many questions that life poses. You want to be totally unrestrained, as this is the sign of freedom and independence. You abhor routine and boring work, and you are not very good at staying with everyday tasks that must be finished on time. You are, however, a good communicator, and you know how to motivate people around you, perhaps inclining you to be a teacher of some sort. A love of adventure may dominate your life. This may take the form of mental or physical manifestation, but in either case, you thrill to the chance for exploration and blazing new trails. You are apt to be multi-talented, but just as likely to suffer from some lack of direction, and there is often some confusion surrounding your ambition. On the average, the number 5 personality is rather happy-go-lucky; living for today, and not worrying too much about tomorrow. It is important for you to mix with people of a like mind, and try to avoid those that are too serious and demanding. It is also important for you to find a job that provides thought-provoking tasks rather than routine and redundant responsibilities. You do best dealing with people, but the important thing is that you have the freedom to express yourself at all times. You have an innate ability to think through complex matters and analyze them quickly, but then be off to something new. In the most negative application or use of the 5 energies, you could become very irresponsible in tasks and decisions concerning your home and business life. The total pursuit of sensation and adventure can result in your becoming self-indulgent and totally unaware of the feelings of those around you. In the worse case situations negative 5's are very undependable and self-serving. |
Mid-20s
You Are 25 Years Old |
25 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. |
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Rambling again
Last song syndrome (LSS):
I Think God Can Explain
Performed by Splender
There's a lot of things I don't understand
And there's a lot of things
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
To look me in the eyes
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I thing God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet
I think God can explain
~~~
I have been in a very good mood for the past few days now – two weeks to be exact. And except for the very childish reason of getting lost in UP Diliman, there were no tantrums and weeping recorded yet.
:) yun nga lang, there’s a down side. My housemate has to suffer from my kakulitan and kadaldalan.
~~~
He is slowly explaining everything to me. And I, being a slowpoke, have to listen and focus very hard to cope up. Buti na lang patient si Lord.
~~~
My officemate’s asking me to see a movie tonight. Siyempre tinatamad ako. Pero wala rin naman ako gagawin and besides free yun. So SIGE NA NGA! :) Hero and Sandara! Here I come!
I Think God Can Explain
Performed by Splender
There's a lot of things I don't understand
And there's a lot of things
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
To look me in the eyes
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I thing God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it yet
I think God can explain
~~~
I have been in a very good mood for the past few days now – two weeks to be exact. And except for the very childish reason of getting lost in UP Diliman, there were no tantrums and weeping recorded yet.
:) yun nga lang, there’s a down side. My housemate has to suffer from my kakulitan and kadaldalan.
~~~
He is slowly explaining everything to me. And I, being a slowpoke, have to listen and focus very hard to cope up. Buti na lang patient si Lord.
~~~
My officemate’s asking me to see a movie tonight. Siyempre tinatamad ako. Pero wala rin naman ako gagawin and besides free yun. So SIGE NA NGA! :) Hero and Sandara! Here I come!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
A mere observation
I’m so over mega tired today.
I went to the Senate (with my boss) to assist and act as secretariat during the Science Legislative Forum on Biotech and Human Genome.
I have no comment about the forum, nothing at all. The speakers and their lectures were good and credible; the audiences were participative; and most importantly the food and the coffee were great.
I just noticed something.
Kung sa building namin ay mamamatay ka sa init, sa Senate (GSIS Building) po ay mamamatay ka naman sa lamig. Super!
Comment ko lang:
Our government is encouraging each and every one to observe and put into practice the austerity measures. They have implemented the 4-day workweek to conserve energy. In addition to this very horrible schedule – yes, I am not in favor of this new schedule I still want the 5-day workweek because my work is piling up more than ever – we have to turn on the air con an hour after the start of the official working hours. AND that’s not all you have to turn it off an hour before the end of the official working hours.
Meaning, when you arrive at 7:30 am you have to turn on the air con at 8:30. So bago pa lang magstart ang araw mo you stink na because of excessive sweating. And you have to turn it off again at 5:30 pm since you HAVE to leave at 6:30 pm. Bawal ang overtime.
Our office is very strict in implementing these measures and yet some people are not. Eh sila nga dapat yung role model namin. Parang sige, here are the guidelines that you should follow. Follow them or suffer the consequences.
I just found it unfair. Yun lang *shrug*
I went to the Senate (with my boss) to assist and act as secretariat during the Science Legislative Forum on Biotech and Human Genome.
I have no comment about the forum, nothing at all. The speakers and their lectures were good and credible; the audiences were participative; and most importantly the food and the coffee were great.
I just noticed something.
Kung sa building namin ay mamamatay ka sa init, sa Senate (GSIS Building) po ay mamamatay ka naman sa lamig. Super!
Comment ko lang:
Our government is encouraging each and every one to observe and put into practice the austerity measures. They have implemented the 4-day workweek to conserve energy. In addition to this very horrible schedule – yes, I am not in favor of this new schedule I still want the 5-day workweek because my work is piling up more than ever – we have to turn on the air con an hour after the start of the official working hours. AND that’s not all you have to turn it off an hour before the end of the official working hours.
Meaning, when you arrive at 7:30 am you have to turn on the air con at 8:30. So bago pa lang magstart ang araw mo you stink na because of excessive sweating. And you have to turn it off again at 5:30 pm since you HAVE to leave at 6:30 pm. Bawal ang overtime.
Our office is very strict in implementing these measures and yet some people are not. Eh sila nga dapat yung role model namin. Parang sige, here are the guidelines that you should follow. Follow them or suffer the consequences.
I just found it unfair. Yun lang *shrug*
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Sometimes things really come unexpected
I usually hate Thursdays and Fridays as they signify the start of weekends. I would like to inform you that weekend for my family means going home. And this set up of going to and from Laguna every weekend really pisses me off. PLUS, I have this worry pa na wala naman akong gagawin sa'min.
Lately I noticed that there was/is something special every weekend. I don't know but it seems that He was/is preparing special activities for me... for me not to get bored and do something really really stupid siguro :)
For example:
April 22-24, 2005 (Fri-Sun)
Friday
My officemates and I went to Tagaytay Highlands for an office outing. The place is so beautiful. I promised my self that when I get super rich (not just rich, ha? super rich dapat), I'll buy a house and lot there :)
Saturday
As part of a search-in process, I was invited by my religion teacher in high school to sleep over in the convent to at least have a bird's eye view of the religious life. I attended their "usual" activities kaya lang feeling ko I'm not hone for that. Sabi nga, "many are called but few are chosen" and I don't think I am one of the chosen few.
Sunday
I went to Nazareth and stayed there until 1pm.
This weekend, for my whole stay there, my family and I prayed the rosary every night and went to church together on Sunday. Nothing extravagant but it was something worth remembering.
Yun lang :)
~~~
When I get back from Laguna yesterday, I found this note on my bed (from Tweena the twin of Anica):
What if?
God doesn't want us to let go all the time?
That the CHESS is true.
And sometimes, God asks us, "What would you do?"
And surrendering means "cheating"…
Very well then…
Lately I noticed that there was/is something special every weekend. I don't know but it seems that He was/is preparing special activities for me... for me not to get bored and do something really really stupid siguro :)
For example:
April 22-24, 2005 (Fri-Sun)
Friday
My officemates and I went to Tagaytay Highlands for an office outing. The place is so beautiful. I promised my self that when I get super rich (not just rich, ha? super rich dapat), I'll buy a house and lot there :)
Saturday
As part of a search-in process, I was invited by my religion teacher in high school to sleep over in the convent to at least have a bird's eye view of the religious life. I attended their "usual" activities kaya lang feeling ko I'm not hone for that. Sabi nga, "many are called but few are chosen" and I don't think I am one of the chosen few.
Sunday
I went to Nazareth and stayed there until 1pm.
This weekend, for my whole stay there, my family and I prayed the rosary every night and went to church together on Sunday. Nothing extravagant but it was something worth remembering.
Yun lang :)
~~~
When I get back from Laguna yesterday, I found this note on my bed (from Tweena the twin of Anica):
What if?
God doesn't want us to let go all the time?
That the CHESS is true.
And sometimes, God asks us, "What would you do?"
And surrendering means "cheating"…
Very well then…
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